Twinleafshipping ABC's - Ch 16

P is for Painful

It's painful watching her with another man. So, I'll steal her heart away.

My heart ached as I watched her with him. I wanted her so bad, so bad it hurt. When she wasn't with me it hurt, when she was with another man it hurt, when she didn't pay attention to me it hurt. Was there any cure for this love sickness? There was only one option. All I have to do is steal her, make her fall head over heals in love with me.

"Jun!"

My eyes popped open at the mention of my name. "W-what? What? I'm up. I'm up. What's wrong? Where's the fire?" I asked completely confused, looking all over the place to try to figure out what happened.

Hikari sat beside me staring at me like he was nuts. "Were you really asleep? You were spacing out just now? Are you okay? It's a good thing I saw you. Who knows what would have happened to you."

"Hikari … thank-thank you." A reassuring feeling washed over my body. I leaned back against the couch, making sure not to take my eyes off of her. Surely she was my light. She's the only one for me, surely.

Her face was red. "W-why are you thanking me. Y-you're a true idiot you know. If you would just think about things, we wouldn't have this problem, now would we?" she said, crossing her arms and looking away from me. She was cute when she was embarrassed.

"I was thanking you because I was happy you were thinking about me. It made me really happy, thank you, Hikari," I said with a smile.

"R-really, only you would say such embarrassing things like that," she stopped and looked at me, placing her hand on my cheek. "If only I could find someone like you, I'd surely fall in love with them."

The look on her face was a sad look, but my hear was pounding fast. I could feel my face growing red, for this feeling was becoming a common occurrence, and hid my face behind my bangs. "D-does that mean that you're type of guy is someone like me? So," I looked up into her eyes, my face completely serious, " you could fall in love with me?"

She drew back from me, not so much she'd fall off the the couch, but enough to stay away from me. Her face looked distressed from my comment, but I was completely serious. "D-don't be stupid! Y-you're just a childhood friend. Y-you only … just …." she stopped, pulling her bangs out of her face. "My type of guy is someone like you. I wanted him to be strong, so he could protect me; honest, so we could tell each other everything, and I'd know he'd listen to whatever I had to say, not matter how cheesy or stupid it was; loyal, so I know he wouldn't betray me, that he'd be mine forever, so I would know he would be right there by me; I wanted someone like that. It just so happens that you turned out to be someone like that. I … to me you're just a childhood friend."

I'd be lying if I said my heart didn't hurt as I listened to her say those words about me. I had always loved this girl, ever since I was little. "Even if you find a person like me, they won't be me."

Her eyes got wide, and her distressed, saddened looked got worse.

"Ever since we were little you've always been a klutz. I'd always have to look out for you. It'd make me worried thinking that you were alone, so I never left your side, no matter how annoying I found it."

"I-If I was such a pain, you didn't have to follow me around all the time!"

"You always like to find ways to get into trouble, constantly running around all the time looking for new things to do. I would get exhausted after just one day of watching you."

"I-I'm sorry if I was such a burden! I … I just … just liked having fun with you."

"You were, and still are, never honest with yourself. But, I liked it when you would call me late at night to come over to your room and sleep with you because you had a nightmare. We'd just sit there and talk the night away until we finally fell asleep. I really liked that, you know?"

"Sometimes I really wonder why I called you. I could have just as easily called my mom but …... wait a second! This is just a long list of bad things about me! What the?"

"But," I wrapped my hands around her neck, "those are all the things I like about you, even if they're all bad."

"H-huh? W-what a-are y-you t-t-talking ab-bout, Jun?"

"Looking back at when we were kids, haven't I always been the only one in your eyes this whole time?"

She looked confused, and a bit scared, just sitting there looking at me. I don't think she expected me to say what I did, I didn't even expect it. But, all I know is, the whole time I was talking to her, the only thing on my mind was my thoughts of how I wanted her.

Her smile at me made me feel reassured once again. It was that smiled which I loved so much. "Yes, Jun, you're right. I guess you are the only one that I ever looked at."

Surely, I made no mistake. She was my light, my life. She was mine, for now and forever, all mine.

-The End-